500,000,000 and counting

I am a pretty reflective person. I am not necessarilly all about changing things (honestly I have a pretty good life) or creating new goals, however, I spend more time than the average person (I believe) reflecting over the past and often playing things back in my mind.

For example, as of right now I have been an adult 745,397,926 seconds. Probably slightly less than 1/3 of that time has been sleeping (you know how your twenties and thirties go). So if I calculated this correctly (and assuming approximately 7 hours and 45 minutes per day for sleep) then on this day I should be passing the 500,000,000 waking second part of my adult life. How exciting - one half billion opportunities to impact the world around me!!

Ummmm - I'm not sure I'm doing that well! I can think of some positive things that I may have added to some people around me, and possibly there is a person or two out there that has been significantly impacted by me, but all in all I'm not really sure how I really stack up here. Unfortunately, I don't feel a whole lot better about this if I look at it by minutes, hours, days, or even weeks. Exactly how many people should you have really been able to make an impact on in 207,067 hours. You would think more than a couple of hundred - wouldn't you. Now maybe I am underestimating my imact on the people and the world around me, but then again maybe I am overestimating. Maybe I am right on - huh!?

I am not morose about this. I rather look at it as an opportunity to be more effective. You see tomorrow I will have about 59,400 more seconds to try and make a difference. By the way - you'll have about the same. If I do my part and you do your part maybe we can get better at this "change the world" thing. Who knows, 23 years, 7months, 11 days, 19 hours, 54 minutes, 44 seconds from now I might have a very different opinion about how I'm doing.